A Course in Modern Alchemy · Series Directory
Dialogues I
Where the map begins to breakEighteen conversations at the meeting point of consciousness, perception, contemplative practice and the ordinary life to which every insight must return.
What happens when explanation reaches its edge?
Dialogues I begins with a deceptively simple problem: the structures that help us understand experience can quietly become the self and world we mistake for reality. The series follows that problem through consciousness, language, perception, symbolism and contemplative practice.
Its sources are deliberately varied. Buddhist philosophy meets alchemy, psychology, biology, myth and personal experience. The aim is not to force them into a single system, but to notice what each map reveals, where it becomes speculative and what remains when it no longer holds.
The later episodes bring the inquiry back into the body and ordinary life: boredom, work, family, compassion, restlessness and the collapse of spiritual striving. Each episode page contains the video alongside a detailed introduction, themes, chapter guidance, glossary, source notes and related viewing.
Self, symbol and the constructed world
The opening movement examines the person as process, prayer after hope, the grammar of perception and the use—and danger—of symbolic maps.
Mistaking the Software for the Self
Consciousness, the five aggregates and a starling murmuration challenge the idea of a permanent self without abandoning ordinary responsibility.
Explore episode 01The Physics of a Hopeless Prayer
When prayer stops bargaining, spiritual exhaustion gives way to silence, vow, non-arising and the possibility that nothing more needs to happen.
Explore episode 02Hacking the Grammar of Perception
Could sentence structure reinforce a separate self? Kundabuffer, esoteric anatomy and alchemy meet an inquiry into metaphor and its limits.
Explore episode 03The Garden of Eden in Your Mind
An interior reading of Eden turns the Tigris and Euphrates into a map of divided consciousness—and asks when every map must be left behind.
Explore episode 04When the Shadow Looks Back
A vivid hypnagogic vision opens questions about fear, fierce curiosity and symbolic experience—including the risk of turning symbol into certainty.
Explore episode 05When the Mind Divides by Zero
A search for perfect silence becomes an inquiry into anechoic space, meditative absorption, conceptual collapse and the identities that continue to echo.
Explore episode 06Recognition, transmission and effort
These episodes turn from dramatic images towards direct guidance, perceptual construction and the recursive effort by which the self tries to release itself.
The Star-Eater and the Enlightenment Trap
Can awakening be transmitted without becoming another possession? Rigpa, bodhicitta, spiritual identity and the remembered void enter the same field.
Explore episode 07Cain’s Jawbone and the Ego
A missing murder weapon becomes a map of divided consciousness, symbolic thought and the strange effort by which the self tries to outgrow itself.
Explore episode 08Shattering Intellectual Baggage
Pith instruction, pointing-out and the boundary of explanation: how direct guidance can become another idea in the mind that seeks recognition.
Explore episode 09Why Seeing Colour Is a Biological Lie
Colour, language and Yogācāra illuminate how perception draws edges, constructs continuity and turns experience into a world of separate things.
Explore episode 10Your Ego Is a Hardware Glitch
Why recognising an illusion may not end it, how thought hardens into concepts and why ordinary duties can steady the difficult return.
Explore episode 11Stop Micromanaging Your Own Relaxation
Trying to force calm can intensify strain. The buckled mirror, self-liberating knots and absorption in ordinary work suggest another approach.
Explore episode 12Embodiment, return and not-knowing
The closing movement leaves increasingly little room for a merely intellectual escape. Insight meets boredom, work, family, the body, compassion and the majesty of what cannot be explained.
Eating the Illusion
Papañca, the bodhisattva’s metabolic path and the sootless flame frame an inquiry into functional action and returning to ordinary life.
Explore episode 13The Zen of the Most Boring Object
A playful inquiry into boredom, relevance and nonduality moves from logical paradox and sensory filtering to a smelly dog and ordinary suchness.
Explore episode 14Surviving Spiritual Re-Entry Shock
What happens when spaciousness meets family, work and frustration? Spiritual superiority, compassion and boundaries complicate the art of return.
Explore episode 15When Spiritual Effort Finally Collapses
What remains when striving reaches its limit? A careful inquiry into the seventh and eighth bhūmis, effortlessness, time and compassion.
Explore episode 16When the Body Forgets How to Fidget
What can bodily restlessness reveal about the mind? Fidgeting and stillness are explored alongside Buddhist maps and alchemical symbolism.
Explore episode 17The Majesty of Inexplicability
Language, the Diamond Sutra, not-knowing, wonder and the unfindable self meet at the point where explanation stops pretending to be reality.
Explore episode 18